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Serena joins me to talk about her beautiful son, Christopher who died from Cord Stricture just one year ago. We talk about signs from him and the strong connection she has. Serena believes that we are all intuitive we just have to pay attention and recognize it. The signs from Christopher that she tells me about are WILD y'all. You have to listen!

I think once our baby dies, we still feel so connected. But what does that connection look like now that they're gone? This episode really does shine light on this and Serena radiates peace and simplifies what it means to stay connected to our babies.

I hope this episode helps

Please reach out to Serena if you feel called to. Find her on IG at @serena.elizabeth93 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Anna joins me to talk about her beautiful daughter Evie, who was born still after a uterine abruption. Anna's pregnancies have been extremely high risk and accepting that it was ultimately too dangerous to carry again, she decided to contact a surrogate, or in this case a gestational carrier. She explains to us the complicated journey of finding one and going through the entire process.  We hope that this sheds light on a topic that is rather common within the loss community but that we find isn't spoken about as much.

*Please note that this was recorded after the ruling in Alabama therefore we do not discuss this topic.

If you are curious about surrogacy or have any questions, please feel free to reach out to Anna on Instagram @_anna.e.russell_ 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Dr. Jason Collins is the founder of the Pregnancy Institute.  His career and passion has focused on stillbirth, umbilical cord accidents and umbilical cord pathology.  Dr. Collins has been researching cord issues and deaths for over 20 years. His professional opinions come from evidence based facts, which you will hear throughout this entire episode. He continues his research into these tragic losses and would love to connect with newly bereaved parents to help them find answers as well as navigate subsequent pregnancies.

*NOTE: You will hear us referencing images and documents. If you'd like to see them while listening to this episode, go to my Youtube page to watch the video of this recording.  YouTube

If you'd like to speak with Dr Collins, you can email him here: jcollinsmd77@gmail.com

**This information is not intended to vilify medical professionals. It is strictly educational to point out the lack of education on umbilical cords and how we as bereaved mothers can get answers and advocate for ourselves in the event our providers do not have the understanding needed. Always consult with your medical professional, but also, arm yourself with your own education and knowledge.

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Ashley and I are in the Atlanta studio to talk about her precious son Daniel who died from a cord accident and was born still in April 2023. As she approaches his first birthday, she talks about how her grief has evolved, her faith and how she decided to plan a golf tournament in Daniel's name. 

What we discuss:

• Regretting the decision not to have a funeral/memorial service
• Not knowing how to answer questions with grief brain
• The unfairness of how our babies didn't live and others did
• Accelerated Resolution Therapy
• Cord Accidents
• Grief support for living siblings and helping them navigate it
• And so much more relatable info...

Find Ashley on IG: @apattkd15 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

• https://countthekicks.org/
• https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/
• https://www.pushpregnancy.org/
• https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

• https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Lindsey M. Henke is a licensed clinical social worker and psychotherapist specializing in the grief that accompanies life transitions, specifically during motherhood. She founded Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS), a nonprofit for parents pregnant after a previous perinatal loss or infant death. Her writing has been featured on TODAY.com and in Pregnancy and Newborn magazine, Huffington Post, and the New York Times. Her new book, "When Skies Are Gray" is being released later in the year.

In this episode we discuss the challenges that pregnancy and parenting after loss bring, the common fears that moms have, and the therapies we can do that can help. 

Find her on Instagram @pregnancyafterlosssupport & @LindseyMHenke

Pregnancy After Loss Support

About Lindsey

Lindsey's Book: "When Skies Are Gray"

Pregnancy After Loss App

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Liz's son, Harrison, was stillborn at full term. She joins me in discussing her experiences in her workplace with maternity leave policy and what that looked like. When she found that the terms were not even in place for mothers who didn't get to bring their baby home, she did a ton of research and went to bat for herself and her son, Harrison. She gives some recommendations on how you too can approach your company to try to make change happen.  We also talk about returning to work and the different ways you can handle it.

Going back to work is scary. It's a place where you were at pregnant and happy. Going back after your baby dies seems like going back in time where nothing happened. It's weird and it's a little jarring. Some don't ever want to return and some want to go back ASAP for the distraction. Whatever you feel, it's normal and in this episode we discuss it all.

We hope it helps!

To get some guidance from Liz on how to handle your workplace policy, message her on LinkedIn https://www.linkedin.com/in/lizmyers19/

Or on Instagram @lizmyers19 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

In this episode, I answer your questions and concerns regarding your baby's birthday. I also give perspective on the difference in Brody's 1st Birthday and his 2nd that we just experienced yesterday. Along with all of this, I read to you some examples of what other parents do on their baby's birthday to help give you some ideas or to help normalize what you'd like to or are already doing.

It's a tough topic, and it's not easy being a parent to a dead child. We are doing our absolute best. I hope this episode sheds some light on the subject and helps guide you through the 1st, 2nd or whatever year it is if you need some insight.

Hit me up on IG! @thekatherinelazar

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

At the request of many, Liz and I created this short episode to share with those in your circle. We answer your Instagram submissions on what you want others to know. So many times support people just have no idea how to navigate this and in the thick of grief, loss parents don't have the words to tell them. Well, we hope that this episode can be shared with those that are looking for ways to help or maybe a guide on what NOT to do.

Loss Parents, this is also a great episode to help validate how you're feeling in response to how others are treating the death of your baby. We are here to help you realize you are not alone in how you feel and maybe suggest some ways that you can give to those around you that would better help.

Support people are our lifeline during the darkest times a human can experience. So if you are a support person, thank you for even listening to try to help. We can't do it without good support and love.

Liz and I are brutally honest and we of course are only speaking from our own opinions and experiences. Not speaking for everyone out there. In the 100s of conversations I've had with loss parents, I can tell you that these are the most popular things that they want support people to know.

We hope it helps!

Hit up Liz on Instagram @lizmyers19 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Amanda Louder is a Certified Sex & Marriage Coach who helps men & women overcome their obstacles to create a more emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically intimate relationship.  She speaks from her own Christian faith lens for those who want to involve their Christianity in their coaching. 

We discuss a topic that I feel doesn't get addressed: Intimacy after loss and the challenges it brings including TTC after loss. Amanda is also the host of the Sex for Saints Podcast where she discusses literally everything she possibly can regarding sex coaching.

We talk about it ALL. Nothing was off the table. Everything from hating our bodies after it was supposed to take care of our babies, to how trauma affects our libido, to becoming consumed with wanting to get pregnant again ASAP, to communicating how we feel to our partners and finally, how to reconnect with them. 

Amanda is gentle and kind in her approach and has helped so many people regain their intimacy after their baby died.  She provides a safe space to discuss this vulnerable topic. Y'all will learn SO much from this episode! So interesting!

If you'd like to get in touch with Amanda, find her on Instagram and mention this podcast episode! @christiansexcoach 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

You asked and I'm answering! Y'all submitted questions and topics on Instagram and here's what I'm covering in this episode:

• New Years resolutions are sh*t now.
• Not setting goals and making plans much anymore
• How conversations with Loss Moms are soooo different than non loss
• My downloadable survival guides coming soon!
• I go off on a leaf blower tangent

Answering your questions:

• “Getting past caring how other feel when I include my son on my holiday card”
• “Parenting after loss: thought the holidays would be easier after having more kids, it’s only become worse grief wise. Getting more sad and angry every year realizing what my baby and I missed out on.“
• “Health and Anxiety after loss”
• “How does life after loss (or you after loss) feel different and yet the same?”
• “How to deal with shitty family who didn’t support you during loss and much more”
• “How to manage feelings about due date”
• “How to face another year”
• “How infertility impacts TTC after loss”
• “How to advocate for yourself in PAL following a stillbirth”
• “How the fuck anyone survives pregnancy after traumatic loss”
• “7 weeks and haven’t told anyone because don’t want to hear about 'Gods plan'"
• Terrified to go to the doc, new MFM and now I know too much.”

I hope your holidays are everything that you need them to be! Protect your peace, include your baby and don't take sh*t from anyone. Also hit me up, I'll be boozin :)

Follow me on the IG! @thekatherinelazar 

I mentioned Molly Bears! https://mollybears.org/

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

This momma's beautiful daughter was stillborn in 1985. Her perspective ranges over 40 years and she gives insight on what she did and didn't do over the years. We talk about shame behind stillbirth, fear of telling people about them, bringing them through the years and trying to honor them privately.

This is incredible insight from a momma who has done this for decades. If you are a momma who lost years ago, please reach out to her. She is looking to now talk about Sabrina more, help others in this situation, and talk to mommas who may struggle with their grief so long after.

Email Jeanette at jallen@trcac.org

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Casey tells us about her beautiful daughter, Charlotte, who was stillborn at 39 weeks from what she feels was a failed induction. She walked into the hospital with a perfectly healthy baby, was heavily monitored but ended up leaving  heartbroken without her daughter. It’s been over 2 years and Casey now hopes to find other loss moms that share her experience of losing her daughter during labor. If you are a momma that has a similar story, please reach out to Casey.

We also discuss:

• Trust in our medical professionals
• The dangers of induction & what we need to be told
• Getting properly informed of ALL risks when having to make decisions
• Having a perfect pregnancy after loss
• Conflicted about God and his involvement
• And a lot more...

You can find Casey on Instagram @Caseyhl21

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions! We are real loss moms telling our FACTS regarding our losses. This isn't to bash anyone, to scare or or lose trust in medical care or deter anyone from decisions they have to make. These are just our stories and we are telling it because it's our life. We wish someone had told us their story. Maybe it would have changed things for us. Take what you want from it and ALWAYS do your own homework. 

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

I figured today was heavy for a lot of us so I asked Andrea, Terra's Mom, from episode 59 to hop on a quick recording with like 2 hours notice. I scrapped my whole plan for this week and just wanted a conversation that might be entertaining for those who may need it. We do cover baby death as we both had full term stillbirths and miss our babies tremendously but we have given ourselves "permission" to laugh if we need to. And we hope you can do the same. Take care of yourselves today, Mommas. Know we are always here for you...

We answer:

• How has your family reacted to your dark humor when it comes to baby loss?
• How do you cut out toxic people?
• How do you handle your partner who is so thankful you're alive but you really don't feel like you are?
• What's your coping vice?

We also talk about:

• Gratitude and Grief at the same time
• Holidays and having no expectations
• The expectations put on us
• Going to PTO meetings when grieving
• Explaining yourself for the way you are after loss
• Laughing as opposed to crying
• How much this is horrible but we are allowed to do this however we want
• Laughing is OK

Follow Andrea @grievinglikeamother and show her support by shopping her store @thegriefcloset

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar 

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Brody's Dad, my husband Michael is back in the studio with me to discuss the upcoming holidays. This is the second holiday season after loss for us and we discuss how different they are from last year's. Michael and I are very different, even in our style of communicating. So this is helpful for those that want to maybe get a glimpse of what their partner may be thinking.

What else we discuss:

• Triggers around the holidays
• Relatives that are insensitive to your loss
• Traditions that include your baby
• Having a living child this year
• Being envious of blissfully ignorant pregnancies
• Him being hyper vigilant with my feelings around the holidays
• Giving pregnant strangers advice
• Having a less than perfect life as a parent vs others
• And a lot more...

This is a candid interview between a married couple. It is our views and ours only. We do not mean to treat or diagnose anyone. We are simply sharing our thoughts and experiences to help you navigate life after baby death.

Follow Michael on Instagram: @lazar.michael

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Lauren tells us about her beautiful boy, Austin, who died at 38 weeks from a cord compression. Her way of accepting what has happened has brought her peace which she explains in this episode. She also discusses how poorly some of the medical professionals around her treated her when Austin was born and then what she DID about it. We've all had experiences with people having no compassion right after our loss and this is how Lauren handled it. She does it the right way and received positive responses from those she spoke to thus making change for all bereaved families to follow her. This is a great episode to listen to if you've ever wanted to approach your medical team about their behavior after your loss.

Lauren has so many great pieces of information on how she handled things in the weeks and months after Austin was born.

We cover:

• How to approach medical staff with facts in order to give feedback on their professional behavior.
• Workplace policy for bereavement leave
• Fighting for policy
• Phases after loss
• Going day to day with loss
• Getting answers and being at peace with them.

Please reach out to Lauren on Instagram at @lkdrizzy 

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NOTE: I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. These are my experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another episode drops!

Support the podcast and shop the store!  At a Total Loss Shop

 Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Chelsea talks about her daughter Elizabeth who died and was stillborn just 9 months ago. Chelsea and I had connected just after her death and to see what she has done with her grief, how she copes and Elizabeth's legacy is inspiring. She never thought she'd make it to the day where she gets to tell Elizabeth's story. But it wasn't without putting in the work to get to this point.

We talk about a lot of this:

• Elizabeth's story
• Finding answers
• The question "How are you doing?"
• Medical staff and how they treat you. (She had a wonderful staff)
• Religious views after death
• Seeking out therapies
• Support Groups and committing to them
• Owning how you feel about the death of your baby and not letting anyone tell you otherwise

To connect with Chelsea, find her on Instagram at @icarryher_heart 

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another drops!

Instagram @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Some helpful resources:

https://countthekicks.org/

https://www.measuretheplacenta.org/

https://www.pushpregnancy.org/

https://www.tommys.org/

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Crystal-Gayle tells her story from where she lives, Jamaica, and the many efforts she has put in to get change to happen there. Her precious son, Damani, was born prematurely and died just a few short days after his birth. During her time in the hospital, Crystal-Gayle noticed just how horrible the bereavement standards were and how uneducated the staff was on how to treat her. She dives into what she is trying to get done in her country and how she needs help to do so. She is a one woman voice helping so many but needs help from others to amplify her efforts. She is a wonderful mother to her son Damani and you can hear her unending love for him when she tells his story.

To connect with her, find her on Instagram at @4damani 

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

For more REAL TALK about baby loss and grief, hit subscribe to be notified when another video drops!

 Instagram  @thekatherinelazar

Youtube: @thekatherinelazar

Email: thekatherinelazar@gmail.com

Website: www.katherinelazar.com

Support the Podcast and shop the merch here:  Hoodie Shop

Local to Atlanta:

https://www.northsidepnl.com/

Content Warning: this episode discusses some mental health themes, including mentions of suicide.
If you or anyone you know is struggling please reach out to lifeline on 13 11 14 or at www.lifeline.org.au/

Dr Yumiko Kadota worked in the hospital system for 12 years and has seen the toll that has on herself and her colleagues around her.
She went through an incredible period of burnout from her job which left her unable to control her bodily functions and hospitalised. 

She shares her story with us today as well as how she turned that period of her life into a book which she now hopes other members of the medical community will learn from. 
And also how her upbringing had an impact on how she dealt with her mental health. 

Plus she also lets us in on her #1 must-have beauty product! 

LINKS

• Yvie Jones @yvie_jones
• Dr Yumiko Kadota @mindbodymiko
• Nova Podcasts Instagram @novapodcastsofficial
• Don't forget you can ask us a question anytime by emailing twogirls@novaentertainment.com.au

CREDITS
Host: Yvie Jones

Guest: Dr Yumiko Kadota 

Executive Producer: Rachael Hart

Editor: Adrian Walton

Supervising Producer: Ricardo Bardon

Show Artwork By: @ellymalone

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HEADS UP: This episode speaks about having a living baby after loss. Sarah from episode 24 is back to chat with me about our experiences in this phase of loss life with a 4 month and 6 month old. This is uncharted territory for both of us and we have mutually felt that there is not much being said in the loss community about how challenging it is to have a living baby after loss. We want to tell you about what we've learned.  While mine and Sarah's losses are very different, we share the same feelings about the trauma, joy, grief, challenges, and pain that occur when having a living baby after your first baby dies.

We navigated loss life after Brody and Nathanial died. Now we are navigating parenting their little siblings, Wolfy and Thomas. 

This is NOT to scare or treat anyone. This is NOT complaining. We are also not speaking for everyone. This is us talking about our experiences in hopes we can help other mommas who are feeling the same way. Just shedding light on the normalcies having a living baby after loss include. 

What we discuss:

• The less than ideal way the baby after loss arrives
• It's not anything like we imagined
• We prepped for PAL but not for when the baby is here.
• We have the same experiences as other living baby parents do except ours has a layer of trauma 
• Early induction after loss
• Relationships with people who dropped off when our baby died but came back when we had a living one.
• Breastfeeding, pumping, feeding, formula, pain, etc
• Terror over joy
• Guilt for not hyper-focusing on our baby that died.
• The definition of a "good mother"
• Out partners and what they are experiencing
• Finding space to talk about our baby that died.
• Parenting a dead child while raising a living one
• We cover a lot of things...

Find Amy at @whenmybabydied and @totallythomaswilder

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

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